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I'm Renee and am 33 yrs old.
I too have been hesitant to be annointed at times. I have been annointed once or twice. It is not that I don't have faith that God can heal me or don't believe he will. He may. I just believe he has another pupose for me at this time.

I believe I have fibromyalgia, but need to see a rheumatologist in order to get the diagnosis. I have chronic pain syndrome and pre-menstral disphoric disorder(PMDD, worse than PMS) with physical bad symptoms and drastic hormone changes which do affect my chemical balance which then cause.
depression issues.

On top of this, I have a 3 daughters. One of whom is 6 years old(my middle daughter) and was diagnosed with Autism (Mild /High Fuctioning).

Also, my mother(who I help to take care of at times) suffers from a very debilitating disease called Multiple System Atrophy(MSA), which has some symptoms kind of like parkinsons but it's way worse and there are more symptoms in addition. There is no cure. It's median life expectancy is 9 years, but if it's really aggressive like it has been on my mother then it can be as early as 6 years from onset. My mother has MSA-P (there are 3 forms of MSA); however she has all the symptoms of 2 of the forms of MSA and some of the third. They just diagnosed her with the primary one that was the original diagnosis. The disease onset in 2003, we recieved her diagnosis in fall of 2006, and currently it's 5 years later. My mother isn't doing to good, but she tries to do whatever she can. Only God knows the a time for her to go on to glory, but I would estimate that she has a year give or take left.

My mother has been annointed at her church before and prayed for. However, it isn't the Lord's will at this time to restore her. My mother has great faith and she would love to be healed, but God has the ultimate plan and big picture. We can't even understand the little bit here and now, how could we understand the big picture. We are finite and human. We can't even understand earthly things at times and see through a glass dimly. God is infinite and I trust him as hard as it is. One day when we reach the other side we will understand everything and heavenly things fully and clearly. I don't blame God because since the fall of man, humankind has been detiorating since the fall because of sin.

So it is a tricky thing that I have restled with too, if I should allow someone to annoint me at church or if my mother should allow someone to annoint her. I have been annointed before when in extreme pain before and the pain lessen later some, but it didn't go away nor was I healed. We both have faith and I am not against annointing. If it was God's will to heal us then that would be great; however, I just believe His plan is different. The part I restle with (besides the false guilt that can be put on one... which our churches don't tend to do) is that sometimes it just doesn't feel right when you believe God's plan is currently different to be annointed and also it can give someone like my mother, who God is choosing a different path, or their loved ones not only false guilt, but it can give them a hope of something that may not be God's will currently. Does that make sense to you? Sometimes people mean well, but if something isn't God's will, then I feel it can even be inappropriate to do. Should we just allow people to annoint us and believe God that if he chose to heal us he will, but if he choses not to currently, then allow the people to annoint us because they believe it's right or because in their humaness it helps them feel good? Is it inappropriate to be annointed and prayed over when you believe that is isn't God's current will to heal you, even though you have faith that He could, if that was His will?

Anyone have any thoughts?